I have admitted i have PECHE' (sinned!) but it wasn't a big sin but yes, i have failed let's be honest...
Last time, i was saying that my EX called me back and i didn't know what i was going to do...
OUI... my A... i knew deep down! OUI OUI, JE L ADMET! ( i admit it) I MET UP WITH HIM!
I will spare the MENSONGES ( lies!) i had to tell to my " boyfriend" ( it is for another post! it is interesting!) and the 'guilty trip" that possessed me before the "rendez vous". BUT... the rendez vous was at lunch so it is less bad! AM i getting somewhere with those sentences??! hmmmm... i doubt i guess i needed to get it out of my system....
So yes, he called me back... my knees shaking evidemment... when i heard his ringstone ( i am cheesy i put his own ringtone) and ok I admit " SA PHOTO"... what a combo! it is a bit too much... Anyway.
He came to pick me up down to my office... oh la la quelle ANGOISSE ( what an anxiety) and i saw him in his car and i am telling myself " it is going to be ok it is only 1hour and you have someone in your life" the blabla... but my heart sank when i saw his face, i really don't know what it is about him.
If he was "une bombe" i will understand but he is not even cute, he is "bla". He was on the phone like usually and he welcomed me like "hey what's up dude"! UN REVE... the kind of welcome you will expect from someone you haven't seen in ages and you used to like. Quel con!
He has hung up after 10 minutes...so nice... hmmm... and he didn't even asked me how i was doing or anything and i am like what am i doing here! it made me feel better strangely and i started to relax and thinking how lucky i am to be with my bboy now!
We went for lunch and for 1 hour he only talked about himself, his job and i am AU SECOURS someone helps me. i find him " MOCHE, DEBILE, ETC..."= ugly. After realizing that i was totally over him, i excused myself and left. He has insisted for me to stay but i am like " sorry Dude, got to go"
the moral of the story, yes i have lied ( ok it was a petit mensonge:) but on the other hand it allowed me to realize that there were gaps between fantaisies and reality.
I wanted to find some sparks like before and wanted him to fall in love with me... but i realize I wanted my ego to be boosted and my fantaisy to be real only about UN MEC who was all along, just a big jerk...
Sounds like seeing this guy one last time was a good thing for you - gave you reassurance that you had made the right decision. Good luck with the new romance.
Posted by: Mike | December 04, 2005 at 01:00 PM
I'm happy for you. Good to hear some news from you.
Posted by: Karyn | November 23, 2005 at 05:48 AM
Good for you girl! Are you still with the new one?
Posted by: Audrey | November 17, 2005 at 07:59 AM
That's good. Very good. So tell us what the new guy is all about!
Posted by: Stephanie Leigh | November 16, 2005 at 08:25 PM